I’ve waited until the last minute to study for my media law test again. Of course, I’ve been busy getting back into the swing of things since coming back from Daytona, but here I am at work tonight, looking up information about court cases. I should have done it last night when I got home from class but I was too tired. I seriously went to bed around 10:15. I didn’t have class today so I didn’t leave home until 4:20 to come over here to work.

Then I get a IM from a guy I haven’t really talked to in a month, who I was talking to for a while. He texted me a week ago wanting to know if I wanted to meet up last weekend and I was like “Uh, sorry, I’m busy this week”, and then he IM’s me today.  We had a falling out, or well, he was an asshole to me and said some mean things and now he thinks he can start back talking to me and “sorry” will make it all better. A part of me wants to say “fuck you” and leave it at that, but then there’s a part of me that just doesn’t care anymore and wants to have fun… then there’s the other 33.3 percent of me that wants someone else, the one that’s always been there but I know it won’t ever work out, at least not anytime soon.

So should I continue to be cautious, buried in my work until I actually find someone who can handle a relationship with me and the things I want or should I just say fuck it all and have a little fun?