So this post is mostly about backstabbing…. how often I’ve been backstabbed in the past 24 hours.

First off… the guy… so I was an evil bitch… made a fake myspace account…. I’m a model…. so I sent him an invite because I want to see his myspace and it’s private and he would never approve the real me…. so he’s listed in a relationship but told the model me that it’s just so spam and robots won’t try to add him as friends…. yet there’s a girl that post on there (who also has a private myspace) calling him sexy, wanting to fuck him on his hotel room bed, yadda yadda yadda…… huh…….. so whatever. I guess in the long run it’s making me realize how much more the asshole (the long time love) really means to me and how I should be thankful that he’s still there for me because he isn’t playing any games with me… he just gets annoyed at how busy I am and how I hardly have any time to hang out with him or spend with him or anything else.

Secondly…. one of the girls that went to Daytona to work the week before me is going to get to work in Atlanta at the race. I had emailed one of the guys to see if they needed help and never heard from him. Gee, I guess I’m not skinny nor pretty enough to work. I worked my ass off down there and tried to find things to do even when there wasn’t anything, and bam, nothing. So yeah, skinny girls do get the better gigs…. whatever. Next week I’m going to go talk to the preacher at the church who wants to set me up with the guy who works for ESPN and does some things for MTV and NASCAR.  I don’t need the petty shit of being a runner.

Thirdly…. my little cousin who used to be my best friend. I was there when she was born…. I babysat her all the time and she was the little sister I never had… but once I graduated high school, we drifted apart and really drifted apart when she hit middle and high school… She turned 18 the other day, so I did a search on MySpace and found her myspace so I was extatic… her dad and my mom (bro and sis) aren’t totally getting along right now, so I send her a message saying that I wanted to call her on her birthday but with them not getting along I didn’t want to start a fuss and added her as a friend……. she denied me and read the message and didn’t reply. Can you say STOMP on my fucking heart? I guess it’s payback for ignoring her all those times when I was caught up in my depression and all of this other crap I went through. She would come here to stay the weekend and I would be so caught up in other things that I paid her no attention. So yeah… bang. I got shot back.

Other than that…. Directing the news yesterday went really good. I also co-produced it so I’m going to probably get a copy of that and put on my hard drive for when I do my reel to send to people to get a job. It was my first time doing both and it was like 20 seconds off from being exactly 30 minutes which is what all news cast strive to be and that’s the first time we’ve hit that this semester. The biology test probably didn’t go as well but I didn’t even get to study for it hardly. Tonight I work from 5 to 10 and we’re having a study group over there tonight for the law test tomorrow…

Then next week…… Spring Break…. and I have absolutely NOTHING to do….. but write. Yay!

Tagged with: Personal