So one of my problems after high school is the fact that the friends that I had grown up with were all gone. I made out that I wanted to be away from all of them but I really didn’t. 50% of the people I graduated high school with, I had known since kindergarden. I think that was part of my problems… I was going through this big transition and went through a lot of problems. Going back to a real college with people around my age (but just a tad bit younger) helped me a lot. I came out of my shell more, I became more outgoing. I got more involved with things than I did in high school and what happens?

It’s all starting to happen again - everybody is moving on.

A few friends graduated last year… in 2006.. Penni, Antowan… now a whole gaggle of my friends are graduating. I went to this movie clique party thing last night after work and didn’t get home until like one in the morning. I didn’t plan on staying so long but it was nice. 90% of my friends at school were there, watching some of their movies and even my skit was shown which suprised the hell out of me, but since two of the clique’s members were in it and my partner was one of them… I guess I shouldn’t be. It was nice to see “Track Bunny Films” up on the big screen with over 100 peeps watching. I sat around with Antowan, playing with my other boys and I just sat there thinking that half of my friends at school were leaving. They’re all going off to different places and truth be known, I’ll probably never get to see them or hug them again. I mean, sure there’s those like Penni that I will and have seen again and Antowan, but some of them are going to go off to such big things and places that I’ll never go and I’ll never see them again.

I guess that’s just part of it though. I guess this is the real last time this is going to happen to me… well besides when I graduate. That will be the last time I guess because when I graduate, I’m leaving this state and I’m starting completely over.

I just always lose people.. .except this time it’s not a bad type of losing… but sometimes it hurts just as badly.

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