So last night was a weird night for me… I went to bed around 12:30am I believe it was. Phoebe got on the bed with me like she usually does and slept up under my Tony blanket (because she has to be covered up when she sleeps up there with me, especially with my AC on). I went to sleep and had a sex dream with someone… the asshole. I can remember everything that happened, every move, every touch, every thing.

Then I woke up.

I was washed down in sweat and itching all over. I couldn’t stop scratching. I don’t know what my problem was so I went and showered, my mom got me some benadryul and while I showered put another sheet on my bed (for me to sleep on) b/c she thought maybe that was the problem. I don’t know why I was itching but my legs are all scratched up and well I won’t be wearing shorts for a few weeks or days anyway.

I didn’t have TV2 this morning so I went to work at 2 and came home a little after five. Tomorrow I’m technical director for the news again and there’s an award ceremony for student activities or something and apparently I’m getting an award for the newspaper. It’s for Most Valuable Member or something like that and… honestly, I don’t think I deserve it since I’ve basically all but quit the paper. I was there for two years so I feel like I should go but… there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to. It’s like I don’t get the award until after I basically quit, so what gives?  I’m a little torn about it. It’s something good to put on my resume but… why now?

Thanks for all the comments about the package I posted last night. I haven’t heard from Walt yet. Dr. Etling said it was really good last night though and only told me I should change two small things and that’s it. Now I’m debating if I want to email Ryan’s PR person to request an interview. It’s a big chance, but I don’t know if I want to. I just want to enjoy a race and be a fan for a chance. I couldn’t go up to Mark or anything and ask for a picture because I was “working” and… I want to be a fan. I’ve been working every race I’ve been to this year so far. Time to be a fan. I do need to call and ask about tickets though or email or something.

Now I can’t stop thinking about that dream last night. I should email him.

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