Tomorrow I do two things that have been scaring me:

• I go talk to a counselor about my problems
• I turn in my graduation application.

I’ve been dealing with some things the past few days that I don’t really want to talk about on here. I probably could, but I really don’t want to. I’ve been locked up in this house since Monday with nothing to do, nobody to go see, nothing, nobody, alone. It’s not healthy, especially for me, because I need to be busy or be with someone else or I go insane.  Nothing, nothing, nothing - was stuck here at the Ell Hell-chante’.

So now I’m sitting here watching Charmed… thinking about the stuff I’m going to talk about tomorrow. I don’t know what I’m going to do afterwards. I think I had plans, but don’t know if I have them anymore. I haven’t really talked to Shannon this week. I’m going to have to do something to cheer me up because I know I’m going to be DEPRESSED as hell afterwards. Maybe NASCAR scouting at Wal-Mart? Eh, it’s not fun without Penni. Pizza Hut? Milkshake from BK? Who knows. I’ve also got to go pick up my check from Nevins for the television work I did the other week for the city. That’s going to pay for my Graduation Application.

I went and checked to see if my classes were still in order and they were and so I checked to see if any of the teachers had their syllabuses up online and my Math teacher does and he also has weekly statistics for every NASCAR race since sometime in the 70’s. Yep, I’m going to like him I think. Whether I like the class or not is another story.

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