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I admit, lately I’ve been sort of blah. The past two and a half months have been busy, slammed packed and just downright annoying at times. I’ve dealt with finishing up an internship, having surgery, packing up three offices that have been in a building for 60+ years and moving them to a new one, starting a new job, and taking math - my worst subject.

So… I’m going to give myself a makeover tomorrow!

While I don’t have the money to go off and buy a new wardrobe, I do have clothes that I’ve barely warn. I’ll buy clothes and half-ass wear them because I get stuck on wearing, for example, Tony Stewart’s 2007 Race to the Chase t-shirt that is practically fading, or a pink VSU t-shirt.

While I’ve gotten my teeth all sparkly, new and shiny and my hair cut in a cute retro way, I’m dying it tomorrow. I’m doing something different with it that I haven’t done in a while. I’m moving away from the brunette and into the redhead stage… a’la Ashlee Simpson. No, I’m not pregnant and not planning on marrying some emo kid from Chicago, but I do have natural red highlights in my hair and I’m going that shade of red that I’ve never been before.

I might post pics privately of my makeover… maybe, just maybe.

So, I haven’t really posted my thoughts on the whole Heath Ledger thing. Why? Well for several reasons… I didn’t have time, the energy, and emotionally, I wasn’t ready. I will admit that I have never been his greatest fan, but I love 75% of all his movies. I was ecstatic just a few weeks ago when classes started and that picture above was on the cover of one of my textbooks, for Digital Media Production. It made me watch “Brokeback Mountain” again. Then I bought “10 Things I Hate About You” because the movie is good, and I was started to become enthusied with him playing the Joker in Batman and then bam…

I see the news.

Heath Ledger is the real first celebrity that I was a fan of that died in my lifetime besides Chris Farley and Princess Diana and that hit me really hard at a really bad time. I’m older now and I understand how life and the industry works better. I understand what being a fan is more than I ever did when I was 17 (when Farley and Diana died). This has just caused me to look at so many things differently. I put a little memorial piece in the newspaper this week. Some laughed at me, but that’s my emphasis… entertainment and features… it’s my area.

Other than the tragic news, my week has just been odd. (more…)

I think I’ve pretty much figured out over the past two days that my trusting people has seriously lowered more. I hate being kept in the dark about things more than anything and if people would just be honest with me and tell me stuff, then I wouldn’t blow up and get upset about things. I know people probably do it because they think it’s in my best interest and all but I hate it and that’s pretty much all I have to say about that.

My plans for this coming week is:

• Monday - Therapy, dropping by the office, seeing about possibly getting a press pass to take photos for the paper at the championship game in Alabama if I’m able to go. Call to set up dentist appointment for the first round of work.
• Tuesday - Go over to meet with the career counselor to go over my resume more and work on my cover letter. Start work on closing Track Bunnies and opening the new site. I’ve had the domain for a while, just didn’t know what to do with it until today.
• Wednesday - I’m having lunch with somebody and working on the site stuff some more.
• Thursday - Not sure.
• Friday - Going to Alabama maybe for the Championship game?

I know one of my grades so far… I made a B in Sociology and I brought that up from an a borderline F/D at midterm. How awesome is that? I really enjoyed that class in the long run.

In a way today feels like 1999… I’m giddy over the fact that Backstreet Boys are all over television and that Brett Favre threw an 82 yard touchdown last night in the Packers game against the Broncos.

Yet there’s something oddly different about today: I’m not taking shit from ANYBODY anymore.

So for the first time in about three years last night, I watched a full Green Bay Packers game from start to finish. (more…)

I’m sitting here at work and I’m starting to get scared. I think I’m loosing too much blood. I’m so weak, I’m even turning a little pale. I cancelled production on my movie tomorrow. I think I’m gonna go to the conveniant care or something and get checked out. I’m scared. I have nobody to talk to, and I think people think I’m overreacting but this has gone on for over a weak…. and plus, my jeans here are ruined. I need to go home and maybe I’ll bleed myself to death.