Here I go.. on my own now…

Well today was move in day for all the Freshmen here at school and I had to go be in the midst of it all (look familiar, Penni?). I had to interview Freshman, take photos, blah blah blah. Only the editor (my friend Taylor) and I showed up to work on the paper, so basically we’re doing a 24 page tab by ourselves I guess. Nobody else from the staff showed up. (more…)

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I put the “ic” in “Pathetic”

Really… I do. What is this 27 year old doing on her Saturday night? Watching a Degrassi marathon on The N. How pathetic is that? I’m bored. I’m ready for my friends to come back down here and I’m ready for school to start so I can have something to do on Saturday nights. I’m trying my best not to be depressed. I’m trying what the shrink said but I can’t help it. I fucking suck - suck lots of ass.

Sometimes I just want to stop the whole good girl act and be wild.  I wish I had no inhibitions or no fears or no morals.  I know me running my mouth about feeling this way is old and nobody really wants to read that. What can I say? I’m a loser. I’m going to end up alone with my cats.  (more…)

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I did it, go me!

So, I did it. I went to talk to my counselor and I turned in my application graduation. The talk, which lasted.. damn two hours I guess, went good. We basically just talked about stuff but at the end of the session she said she could already telling the things that made me happy and put me in my happy place - music, racing, and my boys. I have an appointment next Wednesday at 9am before I come up to the paper to work on the welcome back tab.

Now I’m up here in the office. I was going to go to Pizza Hut and eat with Shannon but damn Target called so my mom is going to meet me there around 5:30 or so. I’m gonna save some pics to my hard drive up here (internet is faster here than at home), and go eat and then go home. I do think it helped talking though and she said that I seemed really focused and determined. (more…)

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*shakes head*

I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today. I don’t want to go talk to anyone today.

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Tomorrow is the big day….

Tomorrow I do two things that have been scaring me:

• I go talk to a counselor about my problems
• I turn in my graduation application.

I’ve been dealing with some things the past few days that I don’t really want to talk about on here. I probably could, but I really don’t want to. I’ve been locked up in this house since Monday with nothing to do, nobody to go see, nothing, nobody, alone. It’s not healthy, especially for me, because I need to be busy or be with someone else or I go insane.  Nothing, nothing, nothing - was stuck here at the Ell Hell-chante’. (more…)

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